Moving back home is always a challenge. Especially after I have lived on my own for the majority of the year. Especially if you have to go through your past, to make room for who you are now. It's always a challenge because sometimes, you purposely let go of bits and pieces of yourself, in order to grow. I've grown, undeniably, while I was in Michigan. But why, oh why, do I feel like I'm moving right back into my past?
I'm going to make some changes. I'm going to learn how to put my foot down. While living in Saginaw, MI, I rarely ever went out. Due to the lack of funds, lack of social life in a small town where nobody really knew my name besides the other interns who moved there. I learned a lot about myself this way. I've discovered more and more ways to entertain myself, without the company of others. I've learned how to be alone, even when I didn't want to be. I survived. I breathed in and out oh so very deeply. I grew up.
And now? Now, I need to grow some more. I can't keep running back into my mother's nest and hope that she will solve all my problems. I need to take the board exam to become a Registered Dietitian. I need to aggressively research for the jobs of my dreams. I need to dream big, aim high, and not look back. At least for now...just for now. Until I get back on track.
But for now? At least for the rest of the month, I, Monica, will leave the country. To remind myself that there is a world that exists outside of the one we live in. To experience culture shock when I get there, and reverse culture shock when I return. To live another life, to see a different world, to eat their food and immerse myself in their culture. To take pictures, to make memories, to be in good company. I need this for myself, my sanity, to fulfill my ongoing desire for adventure.
Village of Oios on the island of Santorini, GreeceNumber of Days: 10
Number of Days Before Departure: 3?!
Photo courtesy http://www.theodora.com/wfb/photos/greece/greece3.jpg
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